yes, because that's where i find my comfort zone... i miss being able to write and read books, and just listen to music. when art flourished, it's him that I remember... always!
he took a big part of me. i have already imagined myself growing old with him. but hell yeah, life is not a fairy tale.
Monday, October 29, 2012
closing the 30th year of my life...
they say that the age of generativity comes along when you turn 30 years old. when I turned to this great milestone, I took the risk of being able to experience a lot of emotions. There's grief, anxiety, LOVE, losing it, and doing something that is not socially acceptable. I guess the highlight of this year was when I realized that I am indeed capable of loving someone, and sharing a part of myself to that person. It's quite liberating. I just broke a barrier that I myself have created before. I was happy with that 4 month relationship. I guess it's not meant to last, because he is married. Goodbye was equated with his last words, "words evade me, life is really complicated." I cried many times but I am grateful somehow that I managed to come out from that relationship. He finally let go of me... and a part of myself would like to believe that he's just there waiting...
anyway, I've been going back to my initial plans of serving the people. I recently applied for a position as a membership development coordinator in Amnesty International Philippines. I think I fared in my written exams well. However, i slightly missed some important points during the interview. I's been more than a week now since my last interview and I haven't heard from them yet. And I am still hoping with prayers that they will consider my intention to work for their organization.
I no longer have funds though. I am struggling with my finances and I think this will also be part of my major milestone when i decided to quit my job for 7 years in a global bank. I have given up so much when I turned towards this dream. I have been wanting to work with the people and involve myself in empowering them.I should keep my focus now. If ever my plans wouldn't work it, then let it be. I still have my family, friends, and faith. That's what matters to me now...
anyway, I've been going back to my initial plans of serving the people. I recently applied for a position as a membership development coordinator in Amnesty International Philippines. I think I fared in my written exams well. However, i slightly missed some important points during the interview. I's been more than a week now since my last interview and I haven't heard from them yet. And I am still hoping with prayers that they will consider my intention to work for their organization.
I no longer have funds though. I am struggling with my finances and I think this will also be part of my major milestone when i decided to quit my job for 7 years in a global bank. I have given up so much when I turned towards this dream. I have been wanting to work with the people and involve myself in empowering them.I should keep my focus now. If ever my plans wouldn't work it, then let it be. I still have my family, friends, and faith. That's what matters to me now...
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