procastination

the best time to finish a task is a day before the deadline...

there's life after the deadline!

i've always instilled these phrases in my mind since i started my post graduate studies. i have to accept that the creative juices will just come pouring in a day before the deadline, i have to admit that this has never been a good habit. yes, i get to accommodate some other tasks, engage with more people socially, however, my body's beaten really hard with all of the caffeine and nicotine having a majestic flow in my body! and i get so drowsy the next day...

i should stop postponing my tasks.

earlier i thought of going to the commission of human rights and department of social welfare and development to submit my applications, however, i ended up staying the whole day at home. the only time that i had to get out was when i ran out of cigarettes to smoke! it's not good at all!

you see, i am still keeping this fire in me to hold on to my dreams of being able to acquire a job that involves social services especially with the marginal sector, however, i hate myself for being too lazy. that's why i am halfway to going back to the call center industry again.

i am still torn, lazy, and undecided...

at least i am no longer ranting about him na... phew!